Colours Of The Rainbow______
Friday, April 4, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLA!

see? i remembered, i remembered! ogay, i know you wont read this, but i just like to ego and kay kiang cos i've got a good memory! hees. xD you know iloveyou, dont you? i am so friggin sick but here i am, still acting cool and posting! wahahaha. i'm the best. lotsa love! :D

I saw a rainbow at 9:59 PM;

i'm letting others' comments affect me too much. i cant. i must control myself. if not, i'll lose it. keep my cool. yes.

I saw a rainbow at 12:52 PM;

in school right now.. Dr. Lim is at leadership symposium, so no LA for the past two days. i feel like i'm rotting away in school. attending school's becoming a chore.. hais. drank my coffee ytd so i guess i'm more perked up compared to other days.

this blog is henceforth pronounced dead (i'll still update, but no one will read anyway.) cos i have to prevent unwanted people from reading this beautiful place where i pour my feelings. i have blocked every single one of my nj "friends", only you and crystal have access. but nvm. soon i'll just delete this blog or something. see how it goes. if i lose interest in blogging, that may very well happen.

i have lost the fighting spirit in me. lost it. and i dont know where it is. trying to find it back, but as much as the heart wants it, the flesh is weak.

i realised that fridays are a total waste of time. because there's gc period and muslim period. why did we get the only muslim in the level? why,why? there's also two lectures. which practically nothing gets done. it's ms chan's maths lecture today. siansiansian.

NOTE TO SELF
ongoing projects:
  1. Chinese Proj (due on 7apr)
  2. Bio Eye Proj (presentation on 7apr)
  3. SPIRE Proposal (due on 7apr)

lols. crap. and we'll be getting our progress reports on 7apr. if i dont do well, mummy's gonna be real upset. and her b'dae is like on 8apr. i dont wanna ruin her day. ):

I saw a rainbow at 9:25 AM;

Thursday, April 3, 2008


Three years ago in Cedar
we first step into the school la
Then all the seniors say ‘wah’
Cause the shirt all tuck in mah
Then go for orientation
followed by audition
Go to CCA
Got a lot of time to play

Two years ago in Cedar
O level still quite far
But cannot relax la
Cause this year streaming ah
First time take part SYF
Feeling rather stress
Hair was in a mess
Got no time to rest
Somemore got alot of common test
Rather go play chess

One year ago in Cedar
What you think, only last year la
Congratulations
you got subject combination
And as you can see
This year got leader, instructor and OAC
But no toilet, always have to control pee
After that everyone bond
and a newer cedarian was born

Now the last year in cedar
O level must get A star
Or not, L1R5 sa-la
But got nothing to fear
Cause everyday got remedial
And a large homework pile
And many unpacked files
But surely reach the heavens
Cause we’re class of two thousand seven!

-Tay YinXue, 4C

lawl. ((:

I saw a rainbow at 9:31 PM;

i'm sorry if the permissions thingy is like an extra step.. but right now, i really dont know who my real friends are, and who reads this page. so i gotta be careful. i'm sorry.

I saw a rainbow at 8:53 PM;

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
ohyar, dumbass. just to let you know, you're a total coward. "lost my nerve". lmao. there's not a single thing i find in you that's admirable or even worth commending. all i see in front of me is a perverted monster who's asleep 24/7. you think just cos you canoe fast you're so great? well, no. at least i dont think so. flunk your studies. continue, boy. "i'm prepared to retain one year if i go for the olympics". that's what you said isnt it? rofl. you might not even get promoted this year. retain one year? ONLY? ohh, and swearing doesnt make you very admirable either.

face it, you dumb ass. you're nothing.

I saw a rainbow at 9:35 PM;

just quarrelled with mummy over PTM. why must mr eng insist that the failures for interim 1 must see him? sigh. it wasnt exactly a quarrel i guess. mummy was just getting very upset about the fact that i heck-care alot of my studies since i joined canoeing. she shouted at me, i didnt retaliate. too tired. i just told her that if she didnt wanna go, dont go. like in the super monotone voice. no expressions, emotions, whatsoever.

sick now, really no mood to go to school tmr.. sigh.

i shall be off to my dreamland now. goodnight.

I saw a rainbow at 9:23 PM;

Tuesday, April 1, 2008
council elections tmr. dont wanna go to school. just wanna stay at home and rest. damn sick and uncomfortable. i wanna puke.. sighs.

i think canoeing is really ruining my routines and life. i come back home every night totally drained, i barely say anything to my family.. just have a quiet dinner, take a shower and then maybe turn on the comp to post or do some proj stuff and head to sleep at about nine plus.. then next morn, wake up at 5.40 to prepare for school. reach school at about 6.40, training starts at 6.50. this is like so tedious. i hate such routines. cos i can barely cope with my studies anymore.. and we still have competitions over the next three weekends. ):

mr eng is getting uber worried over my maths results. he says if i dont buck up, he'll have to force me to quit canoeing. all the better if that happens eh? saves me from too much scolding if i quit on my own. lols. i gotta find sometime to look for him and get help for my maths. i must learn to prioritise. zeng lao shi's right, cca comes last. i shouldnt be so foolish to forsake my studies for cca. i'm not gonna walk the path i see someone already taking. dumb ass.

i shall, from now on, refrain from posting about anything related to canoeing cos i havent been living my life well ever since canoeing stepped into it. i gotta get my two feet firm on the ground again. no more imaginary "perfect" images the waters always reflect when i look at it. no more, no more.

I saw a rainbow at 9:02 PM;

Monday, March 31, 2008
today was international friendship day. lots of screw ups. and when i say alot, i mean alot. but i think we still managed to cover cost and make quite abit of profit for the class. which is good in a sense i guess. (:

quarrelled with shanice, but i dont think i'm in the wrong luhh. we both were in the wrong, but she got way too uptight first. and that happens when you dont get ppl to help share your burden. you know me and aaron are always here to help you, no matter what. as long as you ask, you bet we'll give our 110% into doing it. but you didnt. our quarrel was inevitable.

sigh, i miss crystal.. and you. yes, you. i remember the times we had together.
we promised that the three of us would stay the same forever.
we promised that when we talked, it'd be the three of us talking, not just two.
we promised that we'd pull through all the tough times, as long as we had each other.
can we go back to those times? cos i really miss them.

i'm beginning to forget your looks already, i dont want to forget the times. ):

I saw a rainbow at 8:56 PM;

Sunday, March 30, 2008
k2 1000m with maxine, 4th.
k4 500m heats with suiping, shanice and maxine, 5th.
k4 500m semi-finals, 6th.
tell me, should i not be disappointed?

i cried, not because i was upset.
i cried, because i regretted.
i cried, because we clocked 2:23 for the second race.
i cried, because i felt we could have done better.
i cried, because i was thankful that the race had ended.

maxine, i'm sorry that we didnt get to semi finals for our k2 1000m. but i did my best, i dont regret it, and i'm happy we rowed together for the event. (:

not feeling very well right now. if it doesnt get better, i might call in sick tmr. stupid rain, had to come in just when we were at the start line. try wearing singlets in the rain, stuck in one position, barely able to move, for fear that the craft might cap even before the race. that feeling sucks. you're already shivering so bad and you see that 500m in front of you. you tell yourself to go for it. heart and soul. and when the race starts, you make sure you pull hard and fast. but the finishing line never seems to come, and the cycle drops by about 50%. hard 10s dont seem to work, and each pull gets more and more labourous. sigh.

i asked nat why we werent allowed to cheer for our teammates. she told me, "if we cheer and we come in first, the other competitors will feel demoralised. so we must be humble." well, i get your point..? but when you arrive at the finishing line, all you hear is RJ's cheers. and the RJ boat comes in first. and NJCanoeists can never expect to see a single teammate around, much less expect a little encouragement of, "good job, NJ" or "well done, NJ". being humble is one thing, but.. so much for team spirit eh?

we arent even allowed to look at the reservoir? to look at the race? what logic is that? nat said that we had to trust that our teammates would come in first and so it doesnt matter if we looked or not. rather intriguing aint it? like.. no link?

i've got alot alot to post about. but i seriously am so friggin shacked out. will post again some other day, if i find the mood. anyway, thanks diana for trying to cheer me up after the k4 race. it was comforting. (: i'll always rmb yesterday. how the three of us walked all around macritchie picking up cans. how we talked and laughed. you make a good senior. i'm serious. ((:

I saw a rainbow at 9:11 PM;